I’m well over half way, practically almost at the finish line. This deployment has taught me alot about myself, my marriage, and just life in general. Its not a cake walk, more like Jurassic Park. I’ve dealt with my fair share of disasters and even the happiest times.
I made some amazing friends and work with some of the best people I could ever ask for. I work in Mental Health, which is a little more different that I ever expected. I absolutely love every minute of it, and it has taught me so much along the way. I wasnt sure what all would happen in these next several months that were ahead, but I was going to make the best of it.
I feel so hopeless the first couple months. I had nobody that really understood where I was coming from on an Army Wives point of view, rather than the wives here. I am very shy, so I didnt open up until I began working. The Army life was a little different, but I tried to embrace it.
I had my first car accident and I was pretty shaken up. I had no idea what to do but I told myself, “You got to suck it up and deal with it.” I was terrified, but Im a grown woman without anyones help. The Army life made me realize that I can handle these big situations in little time to prepare for them.
After my car accident, things were going well for a while. I was continously working and keeping myself busy to pass the time. I was so frustrated because all these little things were arising, and no help in the process.
I Embraced The Army Life at its finest.
My friends from work finally got me out the house and out of my comfort zone. I was ready to make amazing friends and great memories in the process of it all. They are amazing and I was thankful for their friendship, and I knew I could count on them for anything.
The longer this deployment, the more I felt something was missing. I was wanting to know that I could achieve my dreams and go for a career just like my husband. I was convinced with this life, I was never going to have that. My husband assured me, that was never going to be the case.
Everday, I was constantly changing my mind what I truly wanted to do with my life.
- I wanted to be an EMT
- I wanted to be a Veternarian
- I wanted to run my own pet store
- I wanted to be a full time wife/mom
None of those made me truly happy.
I finally found what I truly wanted to do with my life. I had always LOVED to read and I knew at that moment….I wanted to write my very own book. I wanted to become an author. It was my dream!
I’m so happy this deployment allowed me to make these hard decisions and wonder what my life is going to be like in 5 years, or even 10. This deployment has been the hardest, lonliest, and even most embracing I’ve ever experienced. I am going to make my dream come true, no matter the hardships that arise.