Breakdown – 523
Military – 1
Me – 0
Here we go again… I’ve tried to suck it up. I told myself I was going to get over this feeling and start living my life like I’m suppose to. This life is all about change. Change is good, right? I’ve cried numerous nights and figuring out why I have felt this way, but I haven’t figured it out yet. Today, I was suppose to go to work, and I called in because I couldn’t face my choices and spent the day with my husband. I know I’m stronger than this, but its only getting the best of me or should I say worse?
I told myself I was going to be happy and I was going to see my family all the time. Coming back to my home state was suppose to be easier and more enjoyable, but I see this state as “foreign land” now and I’m devastated to know this is how I feel. My husband asks me all the time now, “you good?” “you okay?” All I can say is, “Yeah, I’m fine.” I always loved change. Change is always good for the soul since you’re doing new things and experiencing new things.
Its been 3 weeks and I’m struggling. I’ve felt negative about so many things in life but, in this instant, I’ve never felt more negative about a life changing decision. I’m putting all my prayers into God’s hands and I’m going to let him guide me through this journey here in this different environment.
What about you? Have you experienced different adventures and decisions you’ve made and regretted them or wish things were different?